If I were this girl right now. I would stab (particular) someone with the knife. Sometimes some people are just stupid you feel like it's a waste of time trying to reason with them or try to figure out the logic behind their action. I feel like it's not worth my breath. And you know what...? Some people bitch about unimportant stuff that I think it's stupid. I mean come on, use your time for something better...for the sake of you and me both.


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Finished version of the master copy of Jason Chan's artwork. I know it's imperfect but I did the best I could. I'm not Jason Chan.


Click for full view in DA page.


Thanks a lot.

So here's the thing.
I accepted the payment from my buyer. It said payment is received. I did transfer the money from PayPal to the bank and it was like the usual, I was assuming it was OK. After that, it just disappeared from my Paypal money amount and it didn't say anything about transferring from PayPal to the bank, like they usually did in my activity list. In other words, the money just disappeared.
I really can't afford to lose this much money. It is a lot, and I am 100% sure it is also not my fault. It seems like it has nothing to do with my monthly limit because I withdraw money again that night and it was alright (and it appeared on my activity list as well).
I can't be angry at PayPal just yet because if it really is transferred to my bank account, it will be tomorrow or the day after, and then I will be able to see whether or not it really did disappear from PayPal.

I hope that is not true because I really want my property back.



And I have to do this while worrying about the stupid money...

Jason Chan's Master copy Work in Progress for Digital Painting class homework... 



Click for full view... 





GAH THIS SUCKS!

FFFUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK  I SPILLED TEA ON MY BIOLOGY PAPERWORK!!! DAMN DAMN DAMN!!! PLEASEE SALVAGE MY BIOLOGY PAPER!!!!
I'M SO NOT RE-DO ING THIS!!!!

I am sick of doing work lately...maybe that is also because I am sick physically.
I just want to slack off and procrastinate and taking it easy for now.

To be honest, I know I can't do that if I want to keep up my grades and work quality, I'm so glad some people are still giving me pressure to do the work.

LOL I think I'm falling sick...!
I'm trying to eat good food, vitamins, and take a good rest today instead of doing "labor" work of tons of assignments.
I can catch up later on when I'm feeling better. Can't afford to get sick at all...wish me the best, ya?

I feel a bit down thinking about this. Everyone in school seems to have their main objectives going here. Some want to do creature design in game industry, some want to be character designers, the other landscape or concept artist, some of them even want to be a special effect specialists for movies. I myself wants to do animation (traditional and digital), I haven't met any fellow animation pursuer here though.
Problem is, I pretty much do below average on both film and animation class. I am still in B grade, but my works seem to be depressing me because they all are crap! I wish I could've started with a cool start, but I guess I can't since I can't be fabulous in everything. My other subjects seem to be better than my animation, but I want to do animation no matter what! I want to preserve...

I 'm feeling sick like I stated above. So I rested on my bed and tried to relax and sleep. Those thoughts came to mind...I feel somewhat depressed by the fact that I feel miserable about it. I muttered to myself without really thinking anything "You can do it, Steff!" and somehow I felt like someone else told me that, I was fully woken up...I felt a bit better. I need strength from others whom I trust.  I guess this is one time that I really feel loneliness. It's not like I am bothered by the fact, I like living alone. I trully do. It's just a complicated thing I can't really describe...

Imma take a rest now, I feel so weak and uncomfortable >.>

I just reached home at 00:10 from the campus! I'm getting awesome and awesomer yay! *shot*

Tired but happy~! I got my first B (no more B minuses) in art class!!! And A minus for Art History Essay!! Wonderffuuuullll~~~~~ And that's awesommeeeehhh!!!!! I'm a show off yeah I don't care!
Yayayay~~~~ I have deadline in 9 hours...damnit! I need sleep beeotches~ Luvya XD

HOMG all 3 packages sent on same day~ 

My assignment makes me cry blood! It makes me have some stupid internal monologue like "Damn I can't do this anymore!!! it's crazy!" "but everyone else has finished theirs! It's your own fault!" "I know but I can't do this anymore" "@(#*(@(*#@*&#*@&#@#"

WTH I promise I won't procrastinate anymore for the sake of my well being!!!
I still have hundreds to finish in this busy week... 

Gah I can't take it anymore!!! I really can't do 10++ drawing in a day...I'm such a loser *emoes*
The number of drawings I have to do is like...OVERWHELMING!

I'm going to game center now and continue my drawing duty later T_______T

Anyone in my area has the "Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain" by Betty Edwards? Possibly along with the workbook...
I desperately need the book for school assignment (ordering will take some time), anyone has the book and willing to lend a hand before mine arrives?

Thanks in advance, guys =)

EDIT: Okay nevermind~ Kinokuniya has it =)
Thanks neeways ^_^