"It's okay to fall on your ass every once in awhile"

...that's what my instructor told me when I freaked out about my horrible assignment.

Do you know those days? When you're so down, and not knowing what to do. You think you're left behind and it's too late to redeem yourself? Your dreams get sour and things don't seem be very fair towards you?

When I started in this school, everything went fine. In fact, I thought I was doing pretty well. I feel a spark of confidence starting to grow in me, and I feel good about myself.  But there are times, when I feel like I am just left behind, people get better and I remain the same. That is how I've been feeling lately. I don't feel like I'm being cocky and do less work when they say I was doing well, I still try my best to do things as best as I could and be better, but of course there are times when I do horribly awful just because, maybe those are just one of my bad days, but I don't know...maybe I'm just not good after all, right? No.

That is not going to be my answer even if I am going to be the last in the race this time. Not anymore.

Smooth roads never make good drivers; Smooth sea never makes good sailors.

I don't want to talk big, so I will stop here. I just want to say it for myself that everything will be okay and hard work pays off even though I do feel crappy right now. I just need to step out of my shell and be stronger.